Cancer Articles: Re: Daughtersofmoms withBREASTCANCER Not A Very Good Day For Me.

Sabtu, 19 Juli 2008

Re: Daughtersofmoms withBREASTCANCER Not A Very Good Day For Me.

Your post made me so sad. I am sure that you did a great job taking care of
her in her last days!

On Fri, Jul 18, 2008 at 3:30 PM, MeGaN <megan2007_4208@yahoo.com> wrote:

> Hi this is Megan again. I started writing to this group when my mother
> Jacky was still alive. The days are very slow, and they even at times
> seem to drag. I miss my mother sooooo much. It sucks that she is
> nothing but a dang memory to me now. What am I supposed to do without
> my best friend here??? I don't hardly ever feel like leaving the
> house. I always have flashbacks of either good times or bad times
> with my mom. It hurts so much to make myself realize she's no longer
> here. All I want is my mom back before she had the notorious "C" word.
> I hate Cancer. I hate what it did to my mother. It changed her
> appearance really bad in those last days, as she had asked me to quote
> on quote "Pull the plug"
>
> My mother was so brave. I remember asking her if she was afraid, and
> she just shook her head no. It took 2 1/2 days for her to pass in the
> V.A. hospital after I respected her wishes and did the necessary
> procedures for her to go in peace. I stayed by her side, and I sang
> "Amazing Grace" to her along side her sister, who is a Breast Cancer
> survivor. (As I sit her and recollect on these things the tears are
> streaming down my face!!) I also read bible versus to her, and read
> the book of Ruth to her. She always was a strong believer of reading
> her bible whatever chance she got.
>
> The inner beauty that shinned threw her those last days was
> UNBELIEVABLE. Even though she had asked me not to have her vitals
> taken, I had to, so I knew how close it would be. I sorta had to
> prepare myself for the worst. I'm so proud of my mom, she fought bc
> until her body wouldn't let her anymore. She was so stubborn, I
> remember she was trying to speak to me , even though I couldn't
> understand her,( all I heard was a whisper) and then I told her that
> she didn't have to say anymore. She has done her best, and doesn't
> have to try so hard anymore. To tell you the truth, I never thought
> that I would be able to handle holding her hand and watching her take
> her last breaths but, Someone was there in that hospital room to give
> me extra strength. Someone I used to despite.
>
> Thanks for letting me vent. For now thats all I have to say. Buh Bye
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